Jason Isbell has such a good song about anxiety, appropriately titled “Anxiety”.

Anxiety, why do you always get the best of me, I’m out here living in a fantasy, and I can’t enjoy a goddam thing!

Talking to my friends who I know love me and are happy to hear from me no matter how long it has been. But what if they don’t anymore?

Anxiety leading into a job interview isn’t intrinsically ridiculous. But maybe the manner in which my anxiety expressed itself was ridiculous.

I interviewed for my current job in June 2022. A week or so before the interview, I had a fairly vivid dream (abnormal for me) in which I woke up on the day of my job interview to discover that I was in Ukraine having volunteered to help them fight off the Russian invasion.

I was riding in the back of a truck with some other foreign volunteers, sorta like the very beginning of the Skyrim story (except we weren’t prisoners). I wasn’t worried about getting shot, or getting blown up by a drone, mind you, I was worried about missing my job interview.